sad

i can't beieve,yesterday can finish my live first english version aticle.
i know that,must be a lot grmmar mistakes.
very trouble write in english,even just simple word,i also don't no how to spell.
even i know how to spell the word,but i also no cofidence the word is right or wrong.
i always must check the dictionary and double comfirmed my spell is corect or not.
everyone always a first time, and writing english in blog is my new start.
hope this year,i can talk alot,write alot and listen more english.
i can not stay same way,and waste my time.
is ten years already,i still don't no how to use english,talk to everybody.
so sad...